Clothes from yesterday spread on the floor, From two days back and maybe from the week before, I’d be next to you in the sofa with you fast asleep, And me laying there in an uncomfortable pose, Just being there would be privilege enough, To forget what matters and all the rest, Because the time we spent perfecting each moment, Left me no time to think of how to be alone again, Your head on my chest, breathing in your hair, Or when I’d sit next to you with you reading in the chair, Always talking about the summer and the warmer days, And how you hate that when it doesn’t snow it always rains, Or spending hours on the floor, Cause that would be where you’d have fallen asleep, And I’d be thinking that I’d never leave, And I’d watch you and you’d know, We would be walking outside and I’d be silently freezing, Because I gave you my jacket but in the cold it’s worth being, And when we get to the subway you’d rest your head on my shoulder, And you’d say you’d like to move to a place where it’s warmer, When we’d get home we’d watch the snow fall, Feeling the coffee steam rise up and caress your face so warm, And we’d fall asleep on that same old sofa with your head on my chest, And the snow would keep falling, But I’m alone, And I hate that when it doesn’t snow, It always rains, But I’m alone, And I hate that when it doesn’t snow, I’m still alone.

Walking this self-built road, I've been here before but not with this hope, Maybe I can make a new path, a new chapter, My old path is ruined, Hopefully I'll find my meaning of this, Brick walls, closed curtains and melancholia buried in old walls, Cold dark night, the air is too thick to breath, It's making me suffocate, slowly fading away, On my way to recreate my own mind, For whatever it's worth I can't keep my thoughts, I see my old secrets of regrets in the cracks of my head, I've never felt like this before, Everyone just told me to move on, But simple as that it'll never be, Stop lying to me, I want to be free, Losing hope is just a part of life, Unfair and horrible, but still a part, I trusted them when they told me I would be fine, But months of grieving and diseases just comes to show, That life will keep pushing me down into my selfish dark hole I've been here for quite some time, But I don't feel like it's any help, My inner thoughts still scream to me, "Everyone is to blame for your mistakes" I don't want this anymore,

Så lämna mig här i sorg och i misär, Låt oss missa de dar vi trodde vi hade kvar, Har kämpat så länge nu, Allt måste väl få sitt slut, Vad var det som gick snett Varför gav du upp så lätt? Alla dina ord finns kvar, Under täcket du och jag, Där önskar jag att vi var, Kände du plöstligt nåt? Eller har de känslorna helt enkelt försvunnit? Blommor kunde inte laga våra sår, Och varje gång jag blundar ser jag dig le, Jag känner först glädje till jag kommer på, Du kollade inte bakåt fast jag stod och vinkade, Kolla tillbaka, kom tillbaka, Förlåt, det var inte meningen att skrika, Men jag behöver dig här, Och nu så står jag här, Det spelar ingen roll åt vilket håll jag än går, För vägen är så lång och mina ben så trötta, Kommer jag någonsin nå mitt mål? Jag vet inte ens vad det är, Mållös och utan ord står jag och tittar på, Medan allt som som spelade roll, Försvinner in i ett svart hål, Och jag, jag förstår inte vart jag ska gå, Jag minns den tiden när det första jag såg på morgonen, Var ditt ansikte som log mot mig, jag önskar att den tiden kunde vara en framtid, Men så lätt är det inte, Det är aldrig så lätt, Om jag ger dig en andra chans, Ger du då mig en andra chans? Om jag ger dig en tredje chans, Ger du då mig en tredje chans? Allt jag behöver, är en fjärde chans, En chans till, är allt jag ber, En chans till för att bevisa att jag har fel. English: So leave me here, In grief and misery, Let us miss the days, We thought that we had left, have fought for so long now, I guess everything must come to and end, What was it that went wrong? Why did you give up that easily? All your words remain, Under the covers you and I, Where I wish we were, Did you suddenly feel something, Or have those feelings simply disappeared? Flowers couldn't heal our wounds, And everytime I close my eyes I see you smile, At first I first feel happiness until I realise, You didn't look back even though I stood and waved, Look back, Just look back, Come back, I'm sorry, I didn't mean to scream, But I need you here, And now I stand here, It does not matter which way I go, Because the way is so long and my legs so tired, Will I ever reach my goal? My goal? I don't even know what it is, Speechless and without a word I stand and watch, While everything that once mattered, Disappears in to a black hole, And I, I don't understand where I'm supposed go, I remember the time when the first thing I saw in the morning, Was your face, smiling at me and I wish those days could also be a future, But it's not that easy, It's never that easy. If I give you a second chance, Will you give me a second chance? If I give you a third chance, Will you give me a third chance? Everything I need, Is a fourth chance, One more chance, is all I ask for, One more chance to prove that I am wrong.

I don't want to walk, On the ground upon which you stayed, And I don't need another mouth, That's telling me I can't go my own way, I can't let another hour of precious time go to waste, As you're spilling the wine of life that I've desperately longed to taste, For once please show me yourself in your, Own true nature, And don't keep me hanging I'm already waiting for, Life's departure, This is not what I hoped for, I wished, that with you, It would never, ever be like before, Oh, heart as you rise, Up to beat in my chest, Your name on my tongue hurts more than the rest, Might've not seen better, but hell have I seen worse, It's more than I can take,forever you're my curse, And it's not about the sentence, It's not about the words, The memory, the feeling, Is the reason that it hurts , Don't ever get that much of sleep, I feel sick when I'm awake, If i can't be next to you, I'll throw my body in the lake, Despite all the pain, All I wished for was to have you around and Maybe even have a talk But then i heard how stupid I sounded, I realized then, That I'd had to deal with this as long as I'm living, And that there is not a chance Of you ever forgetting, nor forgiving, But even in my darkest, I never stopped wishing for that one little thing, Maybe just a word, Just a little word that could have the power to make my heart sing, Nights of no sleep Was when I composed this letter, And when I dreamt It barely got any better, Because even in my dreams you were there and my wishes only got stronger, And day after day I started doubting even more if I could take it any longer, "It will be fine" Is what I often got to hear, But that didn't matter When I didn't even get to have you near, But it kept my wish on, growing, Even at night, When bitter tears were flowing, Like a light, Like a lonely lamp post at night in the park, It shone, And gave me shelter from the dark.

I guess that I have to accept it, I never really thought it would come to this, But I hope to move on, From everything, that once put me down, And actually live my life as my own, I will always remember everything like it was yesterday How we sat and had our talks of life and about everything Shared smiles and laughs and a bit of sadness Everything we needed to make it through Feels like I have let go, moved on from my past Live my life as a whole Maybe just maybe, The ocean can set me free, For once I feel like I need something new, Something to make me feel, More than grief, I want to feel free for once in my life, Could it be that we just have to find our way to surpass the bad?, Or is it because we actually want to feel something more than just alive?, Maybe that's why we gathered and created a bond that couldn't possibly be broken, How strangers became best friends is something that blows my mind, How funny isn't it that maybe we have a whole new meaning? We maybe just needed to find our path from the darkness in our minds, Burnt the papers of our past on a shared fire, Created by our own mistakes, but maybe it was worth it, Now I see, This is how it is, Everything that I'm supposed to feel, Is everything that is in front of me, And now I can finally set myself free from losing it all.